Penetrate

Few days ago, one of my best friend told me that her friends take a round-island bicyle trip. And my friend asked me whether I want to do it or not.

"Why not?" I asked to myself. It is a chance that I finally can do something proving my ability, or even showing my passion toward my life. So I accepted her and started to weave my dream. At the moment, I also picturing the way I may look like with the professional bicycle outfits.

Unfortunatly, when I mentioned this plan to my parents, they disagree with me firmly. Actually, this kind of situation not suprised me too much. Because my sister and I are familiar with what our parents' thought.

To be honest, I don't know if I can handle the whole bicycle trip things after they agree with my plan. Somehow, finding the ways to do the self-identity is important. When my parents told me that I can do these kind of things later, I quite felt dispair. This is a dream, a dream that you want to make it come true. Who knows what will happen next moment? Why can I seize any chance to do the things I want?

What if I started to work, do I still have so much free time than now?

I am a student at I-Lan. It is a beautiful cocuntry, indeed. However, I still feel empty even though I study hard and have many friends around. What I want is not just being a good student, living the life with lots of routines and blaming everyone, everything and myself. A commonplace life is not the one I am looking for.

Feeling anixous for being a senior student and doing nothing really special for myself, I am eager to penetrate the wall baffling in front of me.